I finally started to tackle my livingroom. I don't want to do this sort of thing while Randy is home. First of all he would feel a responsibility to help which, while nice in theory, would mean added frustration. I work best alone. Secondly, it is much more fun to surprise him with the end results. This is all basic stuff: getting rid of tons of clutter, dust, and rearranging things like artwork, or moving things from one room to another. I can't afford paint or furniture right now, nonetheless I am making the rooms look completely different by changing some things out and throwing away junk. Not bad. Hard work, but worth it.
I have also been writing again, free verse this time. Here's a sample, keeping in mind that it's pretty rough:
Release
The earth, the sky. So vast.
My spirit’s small in comparison yet
I know that it could leave me here,
become a part of the larger whole and drift away.
It makes my chest hurt.
It makes my skin cleave to my bones,
shrinking from the Outside, from the Other.
Ultimately though I learn that I can be part
of something greater than myself and
nevertheless be Me. At times it’s essential to
simply let go.
Johnny Carson has died at the age of 79. He was an amazing man and the world is a little sadder for his loss.