While kidding around with someone (Mo) at work today, he said something about "your brilliant mind" to me. Pretending to pluck my brain, I offered it to him and said "Here, you can have it!"
A few seconds later he came up to me and said "Seriously, with your mind, what are you doing here?"
And now I have to digress for a moment.
A week or so ago one of my supervisors (Mike) was having a bad day. "You're doing the right thing, going back to college." he said to me. "You've got to get out of here, got to better yourself." And I have to say that, while I understand where he's coming from, the concept that I am somehow "bettering" myself rankles me. I'm changing. I'm growing in a new direction. But I am not becoming a better person. You don't need a college education, or even a high school diploma, to be the best sort of person there is. Period. And I was bothered that he said this at full volume while my coworkers were walking around us. It denigrates them, and it denigrates him. Furthermore, for what it's worth, there's absolutely nothing wrong with working there permanently if that's how the deal falls for someone; it's honest work. Mike is a nice guy who feels tired and ground-down most of the time. He can be pretty funny, but that day he was feeling his age and his regrets. It showed. I'm not angry with him, but troubled by the mentality- one which he shares with a large portion of the population, I think- behind it.
So when my friend Mo came up to me today and asked me why I'm working there, I thought of Mike's comment, and I felt saddened once more. "Why wouldn't I work here? I need a job, this place is flexible and accommodates my school schedule, and I'm surrounded by books. What more could I ask for?"
"Oh, okay. It's helping you get to where you need to go. That's alright then."
The subtext being: You're not staying here like the rest of us. Good for you!
"There's nothing wrong with working here!" I sometimes want to shout. "It's not exciting, but it's good work that pays more than minimum wage and allows you to make your own hours!"
Three paper cuts and a fingernail torn to the quick later...
"Seriously, what am I doing here???"
A few seconds later he came up to me and said "Seriously, with your mind, what are you doing here?"
And now I have to digress for a moment.
A week or so ago one of my supervisors (Mike) was having a bad day. "You're doing the right thing, going back to college." he said to me. "You've got to get out of here, got to better yourself." And I have to say that, while I understand where he's coming from, the concept that I am somehow "bettering" myself rankles me. I'm changing. I'm growing in a new direction. But I am not becoming a better person. You don't need a college education, or even a high school diploma, to be the best sort of person there is. Period. And I was bothered that he said this at full volume while my coworkers were walking around us. It denigrates them, and it denigrates him. Furthermore, for what it's worth, there's absolutely nothing wrong with working there permanently if that's how the deal falls for someone; it's honest work. Mike is a nice guy who feels tired and ground-down most of the time. He can be pretty funny, but that day he was feeling his age and his regrets. It showed. I'm not angry with him, but troubled by the mentality- one which he shares with a large portion of the population, I think- behind it.
So when my friend Mo came up to me today and asked me why I'm working there, I thought of Mike's comment, and I felt saddened once more. "Why wouldn't I work here? I need a job, this place is flexible and accommodates my school schedule, and I'm surrounded by books. What more could I ask for?"
"Oh, okay. It's helping you get to where you need to go. That's alright then."
The subtext being: You're not staying here like the rest of us. Good for you!
"There's nothing wrong with working here!" I sometimes want to shout. "It's not exciting, but it's good work that pays more than minimum wage and allows you to make your own hours!"
Three paper cuts and a fingernail torn to the quick later...
"Seriously, what am I doing here???"


On the other hand, *I* think you need to find a less dangerous job pronto! (oh, and btw, libraries aren't much safer - all those pulled muscles while reshelving, the broken toes from running over them with book trucks/dropping heavy books, paper cuts, dust...)
I think we all have so many internal prejudices. I think we are a very judgmental society and it's really sad.
David- I suppose it's human nature, and I know I've done similar things. It's just not something that I like no matter who is doing it, including me. :0(
I think that having any job is great, and if you're happy with it and the way your life is heading, that is even better.
You ARE a good person who decided what you wanted to be when you grew up:) And, I hate paper cuts, they are the root of all evil....not to mention the most painful!!
I move around with a lot of Investment Bankers who thought they were untouchables a few years ago. They were well paid, received crazy bonuses and lived on the fast lane. Where they happy? I am not sure in the past, but not definitely today.
I know this doesn't make sense :-). In short, you are doing the right thing. Learning is therapeutic.
Or how about, "I'm just a farmer." Yeah, just a farmer who makes sure I have enough to eat.
Or the person who is "just a mechanic" but keeps my car running.
Nobody is a "just" they are often a god send. Okay I'm sure you get idea - I'll quit. It's me Ralph "just" a blogger
"--booksellers really are a special breed. No one in their right mind would take up clerking in a bookstore for the salary, and no one in his right mind would want to own one--the margin of profit is too small. So, it has to be a love of readers and reading that makes them do it--along with first dibs on the new books."
From The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Pie Society by Mary Ann Shaffer and Annie Barrows
Additional from me - You have the right attitude when talking about quality of people. The diploma is an expensive piece of paper. One of it's biggest pluses is that it shows you are determined to get something done, even if it's only the education. You can have that same determination without the paper but it's not recognized as quickly.
(I love the bit about having the first dibs on new books. That's one reason I work at the Friends of the Library used book store once a week.)
Good post, Aravis! Great thoughts, as always...
Good to see you again, Ian! :0)